I was feeling very spiritual this morning after finally caving in and watching some television. There is a truly excellent series running currently called “The Young Pope” which I found very touching and reflected many feelings which I have come accustomed to in my new purer and natural form. In my usual obsessive way, I decided to watch the whole series and finished somewhere around 4 a.m. last night. There was a beautiful speech by Jude Law (Playing a young charismatic pope) at the end of the final episode which related to how if we want to see God’s beauty it is entirely in the smile of others. Not in words, actions, material items but simply in seeing the natural smile of another. This really resonates with me because as someone who was always selfless I think I was addicted to that feeling and to a degree would give anything to see others happy at the expense of my own wellbeing.
Often, these acts of giving were misguided. I liked buying rounds of drinks for everyone at the bar at the expense of my own pocket just to see them all happy and laughing and I have only realised now why I used to do this. It was not for ego it was because I wanted to see them all smile more and be happy. You can imagine that my pubs became very popular and I would always be willing to look after others… until they abused my respect. If I sensed they were indeed advantage takers then I would shun them with pretty much immediate effect.
I heard a story recently about late Grandfather Amar Snr, where he used to also be very hospitable and welcoming. Two travellers passed through our village and he gave them sanctuary for the night in his home. He sat and drank with them, fed them and treated them with the kind of kindness to a stranger which only seems to exist in fairytales. As he left them they continued to drink and make noise and disturb his family. He returned to them whilst they slept took their blanket from them and smothered it with Cow dung and put it back over them while they slept. When they awoke in the morning they were deeply embarrassed by their actions assuming they indeed had caused this and swiftly departed with there heads down in shame.
The truth is that in Giving we must be cautious to what the primary benefit of the act is to the receiver. If indeed we buy them expensive gifts which makes them more attached to material things then the smile which they provide us with is not so much the smile of gratitude but a smile which is constructed from material love, satisfaction and momentary adulation. Natural smiles are the kind of smile a child gives you when we look at them with unconditional love. I do believe animals smile also as I can see memories of my late German Shepherd smiling in happy moments we had together.
So from these experiences I have learned that a true smile is a true reflection of love and when the soul smiles this radiates God’s beauty to those around them. God can only be felt with natural positive feelings and God can indeed be seen in every day life. The problem we have is that we are so busy we miss these moments and then look for answers when we have become distant. As this is a time of year when there is a lot of giving just pause for a moment and remember the smiles as God is saying Hi!
Thank you so much for all of your support this year… I have made some wonderful connections through writing and I really do wish you all happiness. Merry Xmas xxx